Well gosh, it seems that A all the way to Z on my Word for Wednesdays was enough to leave me utterly without anything to say for a while there! But I’m back! Or I’m trying at least…
I figured I’d go with a little warm up post. A writer’s equivalent to that ‘easing back in to the first session at the gym after months away’ feeling. After all, there’s nothing like hitting the treadmill, really getting into the zone and loving it for 45 minutes, feeling great and…well, and then realising as you wobble off it that actually perhaps you should have done a bit less and gone a bit slower because you can already tell that tomorrow you are barely going to be able to hobble, never mind run!
It’s not that my brain hasn’t been coming up with lots to think about and share. But my willpower to sit and focus has been pretty much non-existent, and my general energy levels have been limited to basic daily tasks and essentials only. Such is the joyous and yet simultaneously life-sapping way of pregnancy in the first trimester. Or so I have found, anyway!
I’d love to be one of those women that breeze through every second of pregnancy and don’t even know the words ‘exhaustion’ and ‘morning sickness’. I’ve honestly tried, but totally failed.
I really believed that I must have been being self-indulgent the first time round, and that this second time round I’d be less pathetically washed out and sleepy all the time. Mind over matter and all that. And apparently there really are women for whom this is pregnancy reality! It’s just that – as it turns out – I’m not one of them.
It’s not that I’m in any way envious or anything (well, just maybe a teeny bit), but I’m more intrigued as to what their bodies do that mine doesn’t, to trick the hormones from wreaking havoc in the way that they do in early pregnancy. My body was not in the slightest bit fooled by my ‘mind over matter’ outlook, and floored me utterly and completely. But a few weeks into my second trimester life is feeling much, much easier now.
Inevitably, finding time to relax with a toddler always on the go is not as easy as before, but luckily for me she is also very happy to sit and quietly read stories with me. We’ve been reading a lot of stories of late! But as I am now finally into the ‘blooming, energised’ second trimester, I plan to make the most of it, while the going is good! Now that I’m back at my desk, I might even get some reading in later. It’s been far too long since I’ve caught up with my favourite blogs!